Falling...

I think I'm falling into the hole, again.

Fast fast climb back up before I fall deeper. Fast.

Ridiculous thoughts...

Suddenly thought of the choice I'd made. Voluntary or involuntary? I have no idea. 

Even if I want, it's not up to me to say anyway. 

Or perhaps one off day from work and I'm starting to think of all sorts of funny things. 

Back to my homework. Back to striving to become competent dr. 

The rest? I'll just leave it to Your hands. I just don't want to think about it or fall into a deep deep deep hole all over again. 

Turning off the stupid, ridiculous girl mode.