To Say or Not to Say...

I may be very much frustrated with what is going but I might as well swallow everything. If I scream it out and loud, I'm just going to hurt the people around me or being despised by them. It's not like I have much chance to say anything also as people keep seeing me as a child.

I'll forget the frustrations soon enough.

Read this in the paper by the famous writer 张小娴. 

一直自以為是個喜怒形于色的人，我突然發現，我也是個喜歡把什么都憋在心裡的人。悲傷、憤怒、愛憎……統統都放在心裡不說出來。

　為什么要說呢？除非有一個懂你的人，你可以放心把憋在心裡的話跟他說，不必擔心他會誤會你，不用害怕他瞭解你的黑暗和軟弱之后會不愛你。可是，有時候，憋住憋住就忘了，就不想說了。

　這樣的人多么自虐？要是能夠做一個瘋子，無論有什么不高興和委屈，統統連珠炮發，寧願傷害別人，也不要憋在心裡折磨自己，這樣是不是會比較快樂？

　或者說，不憋在心裡，也不說出來，悲傷、憤怒、愛憎和我執，統統都丟開，明白生命不過是幻影，不要糾纏在這些微不足道的事情上。物來則應，過去不留。

　是的，應該是這樣。