Goodbye...

Goodbye... When will it actually be a time when saying goodbyes will be easy?

Yesterday was the day I had to leave KMJ. Can't believe it... A year passed by just like that. It only felt like a month or less than that. When I took up the offer and went straight to Tangkak, everyone was shocked. Who would have thought that a girl who had repeatedly tell everyone that she wouldn't go near even a foot to matriculation would just packed all her belongings and went to Johor matriculation college? Until now, I still can't believe that I did just that. Yes, I was reluctant to go. Heard lots of bad things about matric. But then I got no choice. At least at that moment. I woke up at 12 something am, saw Sik Hoe's sms that I got the offer, switched on the laptop, saw my name, woke my parents up and they convinced me to go. Packed my bags while crying, went to shopping to get more stuffs. By 3 pm, I was there in KMJ.

I remember how almost every Chinese that I met told me that they don't like the life there but surprisingly, I like it. I got used to hostel life and everyone seems nice to me. Cool room mates and nice practicum mates... When everyone called themselves PBSM (Persatuan Balik Setiap Minggu), I actually prefer to stay there during the weekends. Only went back when there was long break or emergency. By a few months time, I was close with my practicum mates and the regulars started to borrow my tutorial works.

Next, I went on to join the Christians there. It was nice with them but still my phobia towards Chinese prevented me from being close with them. Till now, I still regret it. All the lecturers were quite shocked by how I managed to get along extremely well with the Malays and my practicum mates were wondering why I find it hard to get close with the Chinese. Sorry people, my past experiences are still haunting me a little. Trust me, I'd tried so hard but I still cannot overcome my fear. *sob*

Honestly, I really cannot forget the year in KMJ. Too many sweet memories there. And also the friends I met there. They were the one who gave me confidence and they were the one who filled up the loneliness in me. They were the one who made me a more outspoken person instead of a girl who kept her mouth shut most of the times. We shared lots of joys and sadness among us and it will be hard for me to forget them. So a big shout out to Mai, Murni, Cindy, Jue, Sab , Yusri, Ain, all my practicum mates and all my friends, thanks for everything.

It was really hard to say goodbye yesterday. Though our parents were waiting for us, we still held each other hands and said goodbye repeatedly. The moment Murni broke down, I almost felt like crying. Murni, Mai and I kept hugging each other. Pity Yusri who could only stand there and watched us hugged each other. All he could do was said some things, waved and said goodbye. After what seemed like a long time, we finally made our move.

Hope all of us will keep our promise and stay in touch. I really appreciate our friendships and hope our friendship will last...

With Miss Farhana, our Chemistry tutor...

with Madam Thuwaibah on her farewell party, hope you're doing well in Japan right now...

with Miss Sheeda, our second English lecturer after Madam Thuwaibah...

with my LDK and the ever gorgeous mentor, madam Putri...

And lastly...

Murni, my lovely room mate...

Cindy, my lovely room mate as well...

Swee Fong and Murni during our block dinner...

Mai, Jue and I after our college annual dinner...

Ying Ying and I after my dinamika dinner...

Sylvia, the Penang girl and Cindy...

Jue, Mai and Sab...

Thanks for everything and thanks for all the sweet memories you guys have given me. Will always keep you guys in my heart. Till we meet again!!!

Hey...

This is kind of getting ridiculous. I really need to update more. If only I can find more time...

Lots of things have been going around me. First the mid sem test. Funny how the past years questions always seem quite ok but the moment you look at your paper, you'll faint. Tricky questions here and there especially Chemistry and Maths paper. And getting A means 80 marks and above which also means you can only afford to lose 8 marks. And after that, lecturers will start to complain about us. So easy also you cannot do or You guys are here to study, to get to university, not to play. It's time to get serious. Look at you incomplete tutorial. Do you expect to get 4 flat with efforts like that??? Buck up, people!!! No time to play. Sem 2 is not easy. And the list goes on and on. Pity these lecturers...

And then there's the surprises I got from the prize-giving ceremony. I didn't expect much but somehow I managed to get first prize in poem competition and crossword puzzle competition. Happy but shocked...

Next will be the big dinner which is on the 3rd February. Scared lah... What if I couldn't hold the fork and knife properly and then the chicken chop flew off my plate??? That'll be sooooo embarrassing. And then there's the bread problem. Which one to use? The fork, the knife or just hand??? Arrrggghhh... My room mate will have major problems when it comes to make up for me. Too many flaws. She's going to have a headache. Sorry dear...

Just read Falling Leaves by Adeline Yen Mah. Not bad. If you like this kind of story, then I would suggest you to read The Kitchen God's Wife by Amy Tan. Sad story based on the author's mum. The Bonesetter's Daughter is also quite nice too. And of course Little Hut of Leaping Fishes by Chiew-Siah Tei. A malaysian born author and guess which part of Malaysia? Tampin. Yup. A Tampin born author. That story is good. Got me crying and weeping. But the price...

Can't wait to buy some books. Haven't bought any books lately. My book list:

Inheritance Trilogy (Eragon, Eldest and Brisingr) by Christopher Paolini (Watched Eragon. Hope the book will be much better than the movie.)

Inkdeath by Cornelia Funke (Got Inkheart and Inkspell but then haven't touched them. Planning to but my mom wants to read it. Must remind her to pass it to Wei Lun when she finishes)

The Jane Austen Book Club by Karen Joy Fowler (Watched the movie. Can't wait to read it.)

Sigh... Tuesday must go back to Tangkak already. Must do all the important visiting on the first day. Don't want to miss my chance. I miss holiday :(

Pink Mouse!!!

Yup. A pink mouse. A gift from Saren. According to him, it's a long due debt. Haha... I like the colour and it's really cute. Even my mum and my sis are trying to persuade me to leave it at home. Well, I really like the pink mouse but the problem is, I don't use mouse. Yup, the list of me being a weirdo is getting longer and longer... I'm comfortable with the mouse pad and I seldom touch the mouse. Of course, I didn't tell Saren that. No point letting him know. Besides I told him that I really like it and I do like it. It's very sweet. Thanks a lot to the guy who always call me shortie!!!

Oh ya, I almost forgot about this. How did I even forget to blog about it at the first place?! For book lovers, you really should visit HarperCollins website. They have this section called Browse Inside. There they offer full access on selected titles, which means you can read it for free. Wow... But to those who, like me, are used to reading books instead of reading it on computer, it'll be hard to stare at the computer for a long time. Eventually, I gave up unless the book is very interesting lah. So be sure to check it out ;)

Fashion Show and I???

So tired. If you still remember, I mentioned about a fashion show in my last post. My gosh... It was tiring. Practised almost every night. Teacher promised there'd be a runway. Thought of formation. Practised formation. Called my parents to send all the clothes and accessories. Tried on all the dresses. Chose a little black dress. Changed to a white dress. The reason: (given by my room mate) the black dress is hot but with a scarf, it looks plain. Spend RM150 on make up. Funny how my mum didn't say no when I asked for it. But she did say that this will be the first and the last. One of the girl pulled out on Thursday. We were so worried. Teacher said no 10 people, then we can't take part. The moment she said we can asked somebody else from another class, Sylvia passed by and she agreed to join us without second thought. (Love you, girl!!!)Saturday evening saw the notice that runway won't be provided. Rushed back and told my group about it. Came out with another formation at night. Started practice at 8 something until 11 something. All of us slept in Wei Rou's room. Tried on the white dress since they wanted to see me in it. Wei Rou did my hair to see which suits me. By 2.30, my hair was set and I had my dress on. Had to sleep faced down on the floor. Woke up at 4.30 am. Wei Rou and I tried all our best to wake the rest up. By 6.30 am, we started to make up. But we only managed to apply foundation on. by 7.25, all of us rushed to the hall for the registration. Since we were the 43rd group, we still had some time. We quickly make up. Helen did for me. She is good :) Practised some more. Watched the competition. A guy was shocked when Wei Rou, Sylvia and I walked in the hall. Guess we looked quite different... Our turned came. My heart was beating so extremely fast when I was at the backstage but the moment I came out, I wasn't nervous anymore. Well, we didn't win but we still had fun. Everyone was great that day and we took some photos. Even Wei Rou took many many many photos before removing her make up. She was so excited. Girls...

Wei Rou, Jah, Eza, Me and Sylvia

Sylvia, Poh Yee (from Ipoh), Wei Rou and I

I know I looked weird. People were telling me that I looked cute. Haha...

A dinner with the theme 'modern, elegant, fahionable' will be held on the 3rd. Have to make up again. Another dinner will also be held in February. Who would have thought that you have to attend formal dinner with make up and dresses in matriculation? Well, certainly not me. Another new experience and I had fun ;)

Hi after a long time...

I know, I know, I haven't update for a month, I think... Have been very busy lately. Next week got Moral multimedia presentation. And on the same day, I'm involved with the fashion show competition. No, no, you didn't read wrongly. Yes, yes, fashion show, people, fashion show. Go ahead. Bang your head on the wall. Laugh all you might. Just wait till I manage to find a place and hide myself. The theme we chose is formal dinner so it'll be my first time wearing a dress with make up. If it ends up well, I'll post photos here. And please wish me good luck, ok? I really need it.

Oh ya, I'm officially 18 years old!!! Yipee!!! (although I still look like an imature 13-14 year-old girl...) Thanks for all the birthday wishes :) You know the term double happiness??? My room mate used that on me. On 2nd December, final result came out. Oh my gosh... It was a suffering having to wait for a long time until you get to the lecturer and it's even worst when the queue didn't even move. Honestly, I almost cried right then. It was a total torture. When I saw my result, I immediately called my parents. When I told them I got 4, I cried right there. With hundreds of students around me. So malu... I couldn't help it. Another great news, the college will organize a all-paid (I think) trip to somewhere (last year was Cameron) for all the 4 flat students. Can't wait to go with Cindy (my room mate)!!!

It's kind of disappointing. I was not chosen for the Bio camp. 2 of my classmates are chosen. 1 Chinese guy from my kuliah was complaining since he doesn't want to go. I guess I have to accept the fact that getting 4 does not mean that you'll be chosen for anything. Nah, I don't want to go further into this topic.

I have to fill in the IPTA form next week. Most probably medic will be my first choice. I'm really interested with medic but I have to be prepared for a lot of things. Chu Yee was telling me that she is afraid to take up medic. You won't have time for anything. By the time you finish your study, you're already 30+. How about your family? She told me that when one of her friend insisted to take up medic, her mum asked her to get marry first. She also told her that she will take care of her children just as long as she has a family. For me, I don't really put much hope on this thing. I'm never the pretty one. No guys ever look at me. I don't mind being alone for the rest of my life but still I hate the feeling of being alone. Sigh... No matter how things turn up, I still pray for the best. I know He has a plan for me and His plan is always the best.

Have to finish my work. By 11, we can't use the wifi service. So annoying, right? I guess they are afraid that we will spend all our time online and forgot to study. Sigh... Will blog soon. Tata ;)

Photos...

I know. I seldom upload photos on my blog. Well, since you can't be there in KMJ, why not I'll be a tour guide (a lousy one though) and show you some photos of KMJ. Credit to Cindy who took most of the photos.

One of the many pondok in KMJ...

tutorial park. Sat here every Wednesday while waiting for Chemistry lab lecturer to come.

the other tutorial park...

mini waterfall...

cascading water...

library...

the lake behind my hostel... look at that hungry cat...

favourite hangout place for cats...


impressive view of Gunung Ledang... Yup. I know. Puteri Gunung Ledang.

bazaar during fasting month. That girl in purple looks familiar, don't you think so???


Murni's bed. She LOVES pink.

Murni's cat aka her baby...


Jaja's bear. Bigger than the owner...

the books that I brought. Stardust is now at home. Am bringing Joanne Harris' The Lollipop Shoes.


the bear that I brought. my 16th birthday present from my cousin...


Cindy's pasta. That's the bedsheet and pillow case that we got.

my study table. it wasn't that empty. I cleared out all my sem 1 notes and books. It's small. I don't even use it. I do all my work on my bed.


closer look of my memo. I just love that comic. It's soooo... sweet!


some of my classmates and I in dewan kuliah.

outside dewan kuliah...

I know. I know. We planned to wear pink that day. That's why.


before Chemistry lab.


just finished this and Stardust. Nice one.

bought this recently. Am aiming for The Memory Keeper's Daughter by Kim Edwards.

Speaking test was over. Kind of did a stupid mistake. Sigh... The rest will be on this Saturday. I think it'll be kind of hard to get band 5. Sigh... Going back to Tangkak tomorrow. So don't expect any post till... I don't know. A month later, maybe. I'm sure I'll be back on the 5th of December. Got holiday from 25th to 29th December. Oh ya. My uncle is getting married this Saturday and heaps thanks to MUET, I can't be there. Sigh... Pity me... Never mind. At least next year I'll get an extra angpow. Have been waiting 18 years for that. Haha...

Holiday!!!

=.= As if you can actually call this a holiday. Let's see... Monday I'm going back since my MUET speaking test is on Tuesday. Then coming back in the afternoon. Then going back on Friday for MUET listening, reading and writing which is on Saturday. Sigh...

Time flies. I know I'd mentioned the same phrase in my last post and I'm mentioning it again since it's so true. I really come to realise this after 5 months (WHAT!!!) in KMJ. I mean one minute I saw my name on the internet and rushed to Tangkak and the next minute, final is over and sem 2 will start on the 10th. Wow... 5 months passed just like that... Can't believe it...

Contrary to common belief, matriculation life is NOT easy and you cannnot goyang kaki most of the time. It can be really, really, really hectic. Everyday attend classes from 8 to 4. Then got mountain of tutorial works to finish. And also the Chemistry and Bio lab reports which are usually due the next day after the experiments. And don't forget the almost weekly quiz. But luckily, so far, I manage to cope. But, then, by the time the holiday come, I'll feel the exhaustion and will spend most of my time sleeping. Since the last day of class, and throughout the study week and exam, I barely get more than 5 hours of sleep. Now, I'm feeling a little under the weather but still ok.

Sleep.. Finally...

No no. Don't get me wrong, life there is quite interesting though. With all the different people and different knowledge waiting for me to explore, I'm actually thankful that I'm here although many Chinese don't really like it. Maybe it's because I'm always different than most of the Chinese (remember my life in secondary school?). Everyday, I'll thank God in my prayer. I don't know how I manage to get this offer since the chance for getting it is bleak and why I accept this offer instead of form 6 but I know God has a plan for me. I'll try my very best for my future.

Still remember the day where we got to dissect white mice for Bio. I got to do one all by myself without partner. Yipee!!! For those who think I'm just a little girl with little courage and little heart, think twice! I remember when I went in front to take the equipments, Hanif (a Chinese Muslim) looked at me and asked 'You dare to do it or not?' Yaya... As if I'm scared to do so. Well, to be honest, I was quite nervous when I saw how my lecturer cut the mice as if it was something she does everyday. But the moment I cut its skin, I felt ok. So the moral of the story, don't be fooled by my height. Haha...

Notice the girl with the mask? That's me.

All the organs...


The 'empty' mouse.

The intestine...

The liver...

Heart and lungs...

Skull... Not opened yet...

Guess what??? We have CF (Christian Fellowship) here. The official one. Sarah told me that when they first applied through HEP (pengurusan hal ehwal pelajar), they rejected it. They appealed again. HEP rejected again. Then they applied through pengarah. He approved it. Hah... Our first meeting was on the 17th of October. Our next meeting will be after the holiday. It will be held about twice a month which is on the Friday of the week that we are not allowed to go back. Prayer meeting will be held in the week where we can go back. I only joined them about a month ago so I'm not that extremely close with them yet but they are very nice. We smile and greet each other if we bumped into each other. First CF meeting was great. It's opened to all except, of course, the Muslim students. Many Chinese joined us. It was fun. Since it's the first meeting so it's kind of like orientation where we got to know each other. Ruth was great with the guitar. She's pretty too. Tall and slim. Wow... Can't wait for the next CF...

Usually the same people go for the prayer meeting like Ben, Ruth, Zhao Ling, Lynette, Cindy (my room mate), Ying Ying, Wendy, me... A huge thanks to Poh Yee who told me of the Christian community here. If not, I'll not know of the Christians here. Since then, I'd been to the prayer meeting every time it's held. We do it at 7.30 in the morning before the class start in the tutorial park. First time, I was in the same group with Lynette, Cindy, Ben and Joanna. The second time, there were only 2 guys, Zhao Ling and Chun Xiang. Then Ruth asked Cindy and I to joined them. I was quite nervous since Cindy and Chun Xiang are non-Christian and Zhao Ling is quite a quiet guy. Luckily Ben showed up. Phew...

Tutorial park...

My gosh... Got to go. Will post some more photos in my next post. Ciao!!!