Wedding :)

For the first time in my life, I attended a Christian church wedding. And it was truly unforgettable.

The bride is Leng Cheng's friend whom she met when she was teaching at Pulau Ketam Secondary School. I was 'dragged' by Leng Cheng to the wedding ceremony. And I got to thank her for bringing me there. :D

It was held at a church in Klang. Can't remember the name though... For a girl who had never been to this kind of wedding, I was sitting inside the church looking forward for the ceremony. Unlike the normal Chinese wedding ceremony, it was held on time. Nono, not on time, 3 minutes before the planned time. For me, it was indeed a good start.

When the bride and her dad entered the church, all eyes were on her. She was beaming and so as the dad. All the small kids were cute in their white gown and small suits.



It began with praise and worship. Then prayers for the going-to-wed couple. I enjoyed the performance by the choir team. It was truly marvelous. Then the solo performance which also took my breath away.

Then, the moment which we had all been waiting for had arrived. The groom recited all he should say. The bride kind of forgot her lines but thankfully, the pastor was there and helped her with her lines. After that, it was the 'I Do' moment. That moment still makes me giggle even hours after the ceremony. :p

Leng Cheng and I noticed a guy from the groom's family which looks so like Timothy. And he was in charge of taking photos with the exact camera that Timothy uses. And the way he takes photo is also like him. We really had an impulse to take his photo and show it to Ruth but paiseh lah. Later people will think that we got a crush on him. Hehe :p

One thing which keeps on ringing in my head is the benevolent that the Reverend gave. A successful marriage requires one important aspect: Maturity. He said it's the easiest and also the most difficult to achieve. I got to agree with that. Even until now, I'm still not sure whether I'm matured enough to be somebody's girlfriend. I don't want to accept somebody just because everyone around me is in a relationship and I want to be a part of them. I want to be in a stable relationship with somebody who really respect and love me and also a responsible one. And so far, I haven't really fallen head to heels for a guy and ya, there's also the fact that guys really seldom notice me since I'm a little quiet. I guess that's the reason I'm still single. Aiyah, I'm 19 only, not 91. So I guess there's still time, right??? *shrug* Besides, I'm putting everything in His hand. I'm sure He has a plan for me. All I'm doing now is walking on the road that He had planned for me with His constant guidance. I'm really thankful for anything. No matter how life turns out to be, I know He will be there for me :)

Though I had to walk quite some distance with my wedges, I don't mind at all for the wedding was truly a sweet and memorable one :) Thanks Leng Cheng!

Birthday :)

Finally, I'm 19!!!
Oh, wait, should I be happy that I'm older? Hmmm... Oh well...
Should have started the day with a badminton game with my parents but I was too tired to wake up. Kind of slept at 5 am yesterday...
We went to Secret Recipe for my birthday dinner. Besides us, my grandma, my cousin and my aunt's family also joined us. Though 2 kiddos were fighting to blow the candles and cut the cake, it was truly an enjoyable night.
A shout out to my family, thanks for the great night :) And ya, to my friends, thanks for all the birthday wishes. I really appreciate and am really touched :)

Long lost me...

Ya, I'd been rather cut off from the outside world for the past 5 months. As much as I'm tempted to say that I'm tooooooooooo busy to blog, but somehow deep in my heart, I know it's the lazy worm's fault. Haha...

Since it's the holiday now (only for one pity week to recharge all the energy that I'd lost during the study week and exam week), all I want to do is to sleep and online and watch movies and most of all, pick up all the novels that I didn't have the time and guts to do so for the past 5 months. :(

First coming in to the oldest and top uni in Malaysia, I had fun during the official orientation. All the games and meeting people :) Then, came the orientation with all the medic seniors staring from the 5th year supersenior to the 2nd year senior. And then got myself enrolled in the buddy-line system where your buddy is like your second family in UM and they will guide you in your studies and stuffs... Of course, the attempt of brain-washing by some but from what I'd been through so far, brain-washing me is not something that you can do easily. And ya, racism is a no-no to me.


Picture taken after the buddy-line declaration ceremony...

With my cute cute co-buddy :P

After the orientation month, it was time for me to catch up with my study. Seriously, I was very very blurr and I failed my quiz. Though I didn't fail all 3 papers and managed to pass physiology but the fact that I failed the other 2 was just too hard for me. I was so sad and I broke down after I told my mum. For the entire day, I locked myself in the room with Snell (anat) in front of me... But luckily I managed to catch up with my studies. Though not as good as the other (seriously, I'm surrounded with tons and tons and genius, and for once, I feel rather insignificant...) I still failed my anat for the next 2 quizzes but overall I passed both the quizzes :) And ya, Nana, A is no longer a priority for me. It's different from last time and I'd accepted the fact.

Later on, I went to an interview as the 6th college magazine committee member. I got it and I'm in charge of creative writing. Then there's the college pesta tanglung which I'm in charge of protocol. That was one of the most interesting that I'd joined so far. I had fun with the mc, Yogesh and Sofiah. And for the first time of my life, I got to wear a cheongsam (thanks Grace) and become the usher :)

The MC, Yogesh and Sofiah, and the ushers, Qi Feng and I...

Oh ya, not forgetting my roomies. One is the ever so talented (cello, guitar, piano... and arts) and smart Ruth, the other is also the ever so talented (singing and dancing) and smart Chu Yee. Chu Yee volunteered as the college dancer and I accidentally got dragged in. So yeah, I'm now the college dancer. Not because I'm good at dancing (I'm BAD at it), it's because they're desperate for people and I was there at the right time =.= My first show was during the Minggu Seni Kreatif. We practiced a lot for the fan dance and thank goodness, nothing went wrong that day and Chu Yee and I really enjoy watching the video :) Next project, Festival Seni UM where we are going to compete with the other colleges (Gulp). Then the Malam Penganugerahan Ibnu Sina where we also have to perform.

The sixth college dancers...

We were also invited by Ruth's father aka Prof Cheng aka our Physiology lecturer to his house for a small gathering among the first-year Christians and a few of our seniors.

Group photo with Ruth's dad and mum...

Not forgetting the labmates that I got here. They are just so fun and cool. Love lab 9:) We even went out for gathering and dinner. Hehe :)

The entire lab 9 minus Ismail (our inside joke. Hehe...)

Dinner and birthday celebration at Chili in 1 u. :)

After all the fun, study week came and it was a real torture. At the end of class, I was so stressed out. All I wanted to do was to escape and ya, I ended up doing exactly the same thing. I packed my bags, took the LRT to KL Central and bought a train ticket back home. Stayed until the end of weekend and went back to college for study week. By that time, I am quite calm already. But seriously, 24 hours is far from enough. Even if I was facing the books for the entire day besides dinner, I couldn't finish. Got headache once in a while due to stress. Then came exam week. It was lagi teruk. I almost went panic and blank in the exam hall. But thanks to Him, I managed to calm myself down and kept on writing. Had headache and I think I had a mild depression. But still thanks to Him, I always managed at the end of the day. Thankfully, the end of exam came :)

Now here I am , at home resting, knowing full well that the result is coming out soon... Just as long as I pass (everyone is also hoping the same thing.), I'll be jumping up and down with joy :) Oh well, I'd tried all I could and I'm leaving the rest to God :) So long :P

New Stage In My Life...

After hibernating for 2 months, I'd been jolted up by my university application result. And, unexpectedly, I got Medic at UM. UM, Medic!!! Oh my, I'm really speechless.

Trust me, nobody expected me to be a medic student due to my height (or the lack of it...). I'm not making this up. My mom's gang (the teachers) didn't believe I can deal with all those bloods and stuffs. Michelle told me people got shocked when she told them about me wanting to be a doctor. I guess I really do look like a scared, tiny, timid little baby girl...

I'll be off this Sunday. Some of my friend also got the same u as me. One of them is Chu Yee!!! I really can't believe it. I still remember my first mentor-mentee meeting. Turned out that besides me, there was one more Chinese. We even shared the same surname!!! Now we are going to the same u!!! Unbelievable...

I'm really thanking God for everything. This is the path that God has chosen for me and I'll walk down this route. I know it'll not be easy but I'm ready to take up the challenge. I know people do tend to look down at us, the matrik students. One said that our 4.00 is like only 3.50 in STPM. The way they put it it's like we took away their opportunity and we do not deserve it. I'm going to put all my efforts and be extra hardworking. I'll never forget Him. I'll make it through the 5 difficult years of studying.

UM, here I come :)

Oh ya, also a big congrats to all my friends who got what they dream of. Congrats!!!

Mother's Day...

Have been slightly under the weather lately... Guess it's the journey back from JB. In and out and in and out of the car. Got me headache. Sigh...

Made fudge. It looks kind of ok. But then my mum said it's too sweet. Sigh...

Ok. Stop sighing. Mother's day is around the corner. Thinking back, normally I'll get a Winnie the Pooh for my mum for any occasions. Be it birthday or Mother's day. God knows how much she loves Pooh... Even the study room is slowly turning into Pooh's area. Never mind her room which has a cupboard full of Pooh. And the big-size Pooh is forced to squeeze in my small cupboard. Oh yeah, if you want to find my Avanza among all the other same colour Avanzas, no worry, just look for the one full with Pooh.

Guess what we are doing this Sunday? We are heading to Kelantan. It's just not fair. Out of so many days, the interview has to be on this Sunday. And in Kelantan. My parents did say that I can choose not to go but I know they want me to take the chance no matter how much I don't like it. Sigh... But I know that God has a plan for us. I just pray that I'm on the right track. No matter what, I will listen to Him and follow Him. Just pray that we'll have a safe 7-8 hours journey there... Heard that the road there is dangerous especially at night.

Here's a poem for all the mothers out there. Thanks for everything and Happy Mother's Day. (P.S. I wrote this a year ago so it may not be good but it did come from the heart.)

The one who taught me from
Crawling to walking
Falling to dancing
Crying to singing

The one who taught me from
ABC to XYZ
123 to 8910
Scrawling to writing
Scribbling to drawing

The one who taught me from
Making mistakes to learning lessons
Fearing difficulties to braving challenges
Making complaints to counting blessings
Taking granted to showing gratitude

The one whose charcoal black hair turns gray
Then white
The one whose strong steady pace turns shaky
Then weak
The one whose sparkling bright eyes turn weary
Then dull
While moulding me from an insignificant caterpillar
To a magnificent butterfly

Mother...
Thanks for everything!

Goodbye...

Goodbye... When will it actually be a time when saying goodbyes will be easy?

Yesterday was the day I had to leave KMJ. Can't believe it... A year passed by just like that. It only felt like a month or less than that. When I took up the offer and went straight to Tangkak, everyone was shocked. Who would have thought that a girl who had repeatedly tell everyone that she wouldn't go near even a foot to matriculation would just packed all her belongings and went to Johor matriculation college? Until now, I still can't believe that I did just that. Yes, I was reluctant to go. Heard lots of bad things about matric. But then I got no choice. At least at that moment. I woke up at 12 something am, saw Sik Hoe's sms that I got the offer, switched on the laptop, saw my name, woke my parents up and they convinced me to go. Packed my bags while crying, went to shopping to get more stuffs. By 3 pm, I was there in KMJ.

I remember how almost every Chinese that I met told me that they don't like the life there but surprisingly, I like it. I got used to hostel life and everyone seems nice to me. Cool room mates and nice practicum mates... When everyone called themselves PBSM (Persatuan Balik Setiap Minggu), I actually prefer to stay there during the weekends. Only went back when there was long break or emergency. By a few months time, I was close with my practicum mates and the regulars started to borrow my tutorial works.

Next, I went on to join the Christians there. It was nice with them but still my phobia towards Chinese prevented me from being close with them. Till now, I still regret it. All the lecturers were quite shocked by how I managed to get along extremely well with the Malays and my practicum mates were wondering why I find it hard to get close with the Chinese. Sorry people, my past experiences are still haunting me a little. Trust me, I'd tried so hard but I still cannot overcome my fear. *sob*

Honestly, I really cannot forget the year in KMJ. Too many sweet memories there. And also the friends I met there. They were the one who gave me confidence and they were the one who filled up the loneliness in me. They were the one who made me a more outspoken person instead of a girl who kept her mouth shut most of the times. We shared lots of joys and sadness among us and it will be hard for me to forget them. So a big shout out to Mai, Murni, Cindy, Jue, Sab , Yusri, Ain, all my practicum mates and all my friends, thanks for everything.

It was really hard to say goodbye yesterday. Though our parents were waiting for us, we still held each other hands and said goodbye repeatedly. The moment Murni broke down, I almost felt like crying. Murni, Mai and I kept hugging each other. Pity Yusri who could only stand there and watched us hugged each other. All he could do was said some things, waved and said goodbye. After what seemed like a long time, we finally made our move.

Hope all of us will keep our promise and stay in touch. I really appreciate our friendships and hope our friendship will last...

With Miss Farhana, our Chemistry tutor...

with Madam Thuwaibah on her farewell party, hope you're doing well in Japan right now...

with Miss Sheeda, our second English lecturer after Madam Thuwaibah...

with my LDK and the ever gorgeous mentor, madam Putri...

And lastly...

Murni, my lovely room mate...

Cindy, my lovely room mate as well...

Swee Fong and Murni during our block dinner...

Mai, Jue and I after our college annual dinner...

Ying Ying and I after my dinamika dinner...

Sylvia, the Penang girl and Cindy...

Jue, Mai and Sab...

Thanks for everything and thanks for all the sweet memories you guys have given me. Will always keep you guys in my heart. Till we meet again!!!

Hey...

This is kind of getting ridiculous. I really need to update more. If only I can find more time...

Lots of things have been going around me. First the mid sem test. Funny how the past years questions always seem quite ok but the moment you look at your paper, you'll faint. Tricky questions here and there especially Chemistry and Maths paper. And getting A means 80 marks and above which also means you can only afford to lose 8 marks. And after that, lecturers will start to complain about us. So easy also you cannot do or You guys are here to study, to get to university, not to play. It's time to get serious. Look at you incomplete tutorial. Do you expect to get 4 flat with efforts like that??? Buck up, people!!! No time to play. Sem 2 is not easy. And the list goes on and on. Pity these lecturers...

And then there's the surprises I got from the prize-giving ceremony. I didn't expect much but somehow I managed to get first prize in poem competition and crossword puzzle competition. Happy but shocked...

Next will be the big dinner which is on the 3rd February. Scared lah... What if I couldn't hold the fork and knife properly and then the chicken chop flew off my plate??? That'll be sooooo embarrassing. And then there's the bread problem. Which one to use? The fork, the knife or just hand??? Arrrggghhh... My room mate will have major problems when it comes to make up for me. Too many flaws. She's going to have a headache. Sorry dear...

Just read Falling Leaves by Adeline Yen Mah. Not bad. If you like this kind of story, then I would suggest you to read The Kitchen God's Wife by Amy Tan. Sad story based on the author's mum. The Bonesetter's Daughter is also quite nice too. And of course Little Hut of Leaping Fishes by Chiew-Siah Tei. A malaysian born author and guess which part of Malaysia? Tampin. Yup. A Tampin born author. That story is good. Got me crying and weeping. But the price...

Can't wait to buy some books. Haven't bought any books lately. My book list:

Inheritance Trilogy (Eragon, Eldest and Brisingr) by Christopher Paolini (Watched Eragon. Hope the book will be much better than the movie.)

Inkdeath by Cornelia Funke (Got Inkheart and Inkspell but then haven't touched them. Planning to but my mom wants to read it. Must remind her to pass it to Wei Lun when she finishes)

The Jane Austen Book Club by Karen Joy Fowler (Watched the movie. Can't wait to read it.)

Sigh... Tuesday must go back to Tangkak already. Must do all the important visiting on the first day. Don't want to miss my chance. I miss holiday :(