That Time...

It's that time already.

The moment I saw the instructions, I was struck. Can't believe 5 years is going to end in a few months time and it's time to apply for housemanship.

I'd decided to follow my heart and instinct.

Whether I get it or not, it's up to Him. No matter what, I believe He has a plan for me and I'll commit everything in His hands.

PS: I'm sorry, daddy and mummy. It's unexpected but I'd given you a heads up. I'm not brave but it's time to spread my wings and seek myself.

纯爱...

纯纯的感觉
如绵绵的白云
如澈澈的蓝海
如细细的白沙
如宽宽的蓝天

乌云侵袭
白云变漆黑

风雨突袭
蓝海变汹涌

暴浪冲袭
白沙离海滩

闪电连袭
蓝天离双眼

可乌云会散
风雨会停
暴浪会静
闪电会止

多纯洁
多璀璨
也有摧残之时

被覆盖的纯
难道不会再现吗?

Consequences of placing a pen in my hand with a paper on the table and a word in my head. Back to books, I have exam tomorrow. Inspiration always come when you least expect it. Though I wish my inspiration can be more astonishing and touching... Still have much to improve on...

绿洲...

傻子

听着感性的歌
想起当年
做过的傻事
说过的傻话
想过的傻念
盼过的傻梦

越陷越深的我
紧握着绳子
理智劝我爬出来
可我让感情操控了我
紧闭着双眼
期盼着童话故事的结局

被拉出来的我
泥巴沾到颈项
沉重地拖着脚
一步一步的直走
头也不愿转
深怕又陷入

如今的我
泥巴被雨水冲淡了
脚步也没那么沉重
终于鼓起勇气
从隙缝中望旧地

绿洲仍美
仍然壮观
可那充满羞耻，
难堪的回忆
怎么忘也忘不了

或许
我该真的放下一切
不再回头
可回忆仍盘旋
时间能冲淡一切吗?

A Not-So-Scary Story...

Exam:

Me: So you heard people talking?
Patient: Ya. Many many voices. Talking to each other.
Me: Can you see them?
Patient: Ya.
Me: Do they have faces?
Patient: Ya. Blurred. Shadows.

Suddenly the patient looked over my shoulder and stared.

Me: Are they here?
Patient: *nod nod*

Goose bump...

A Day in Clinic...

What a day.

Sitting in the clinic as usual. Previous clinic sessions had been uneventful since patients are stable. There had been stressful patients coming in and pouring out their hearts but I can't blame them. I would do the same if I were in their shoes. 

Today I was alone without the presence of my groupmates. 

Then patient A came in. The moment she saw me, she started shouting and accusing me. I thought it would stop but she just went on shouting at the top of her lungs. I looked at dr and she looked at me. Immediately, I ran towards the next room with my heart palpitating. 

Then patient B came in. He was sitting with his head down then he saw me. He came up close to me with a smiley face and said "You're cute." Dr called him back to sit. He sat but he would not take his eyes off me. I tried to keep my head cool and avoided his glance. He's already sick. I would not want him to have any assumptions towards me. He came close to me few times and each time, I managed to ask him to sit back. 

Emotion and mind are what make human. But when one's emotion and thoughts are distorted, when you can no longer differentiate the truth and false, when you lost touch of reality, you indulge in it and eventually become prisoner of your own "superior" mind. 

I can't blame them. They can no longer control themselves. They can no longer understand what they are doing.

One thing that strikes me though. Patient B's mother came in with a stooped figure and sad face. It's like she has lost control of everything and she can no longer do anything about everything. She did not talk much and she kept looking down. I can't imagine the amount of stress she is going through. How I wish I can go over and give her a reassurance hug... 

If...

If only I knew about this earlier
Perhaps I could have made a difference
But it's too late and prayers are all that's left

I'm sorry...

Domino...

More often than not, words are like domino. One thing leads to another.

By the time you realise you'd said the wrong thing in the beginning, there's no turning back.

Sometimes, when you're trying to think of brilliant solutions to 'clarify' things, you'd already toppled and lying in debris.

Gosh, where's the 'delete' button when you need it.

Writing is still much easier than talking.

钻牛角尖...

明明是一个深不见底的谷
一场风雨后
难免会有些积水

可太阳依旧还会升起
积水也会蒸发
野花草仍能生长

为何你仍往山谷下去
拼命找出积水的存在?

地越被践踏
花草越不能生
你也越烦恼
责怪已不存在的积水

这样的恶性循环
不累吗?

心里...

是放不下?
还是因为那是唯一
就算不深刻
仍在心里占据了一些些的位置...

洪佩瑜－踮起脚尖爱