渔人码头 :)

又是吹海风的一天。虽然太阳很猛烈，但当大大的海风吹来时，我们都感觉不到阳光的袭击了。好喜欢海啊 :)

拍自于渔人码头，情人桥，2012年10月26日。

野柳 :)

坐在海边吹海风，冷冷凉凉的，感觉很好。多希望能住在这附近，当压力或烦恼重重时，至少有一个能让我冷静下来的好地方。

拍自于野柳，2012年10月25日。

阳明山 :)

太美了。再加上冷风阵阵，太有感觉了。才发现我好喜欢看风景。宁可在阳明山一整天，就算要我放弃在五分铺与西门町逛逛，我也无所谓，反正那儿的衣服也不怎么好看。

拍自于阳明山公园，2012年10月24日。

台北街上...

好喜欢这种感觉。微风轻轻吹，细雨点点滴滴地打在身上，走在这浪漫的街道上，犹如到了另一个世界。

拍自于台北街上，2012年10月23日。

Autograph :)

I am never that keen when it comes to autograph. I read a lot of novels and I have a list of authors that I really admire but they are all English authors who had never been or heard of Malaysia. 

If Agatha Christie were to come back to life, I'll definitely get her autograph no matter what. 

The authors of Kumar & Clark came to our campus and at the end of their session, there's a book signing session. Being a student who had been using their book as reference, I brought my book there and so as others and I got it signed :)

PS: I really hope I'll not lose my passion, no matter what. Congrats to those who had passed their exam :) Welcome to the 4th year family :)

The authors themselves :)

是时候?

又有一位小学同学要结婚了
难道是时候了？

总觉得22岁太早了
自己的思想不成熟
若要我扛起这责任
我宁可与一本本厚厚的医学书生活

可我没给予意见的余地
反正我都没谈过恋爱
也未曾对某个人有某种感觉
我或许真的是冷血吧
哈哈 :D

这几年看着旁人分分合合的
甜甜蜜蜜又吵吵闹闹
总觉得这一切太复杂了
身旁的男生都说
'以你的长相，若有人愿看你一眼，你都应该偷笑了'

算了
我还是做回我的苹果吧 :)

小学同学
祝你幸福吧 :)


PS: The internet connection is soooooooooo slow, I think even a snail/turtle/tortoise can crawl faster...

End of a week...

It's Sunday again, the end of another week. Another eventful week is waiting for me.

Monday-Thursday: Presentations & Seminars & Clinics as usual.
Friday: End-of-Posting Test for all 4 postings (*gulp*).
          : Viva voce for Opthalmology posting (*gulp*)
          : Prof Kumar and Dr Clark, the authors of Kumar&Clerk are coming to UM!!! I can foresee  
            many carrying the thick thick clinical medicine text books and line up for autograph. Haha :)
Saturday: Cindy's convocation in UKM. My dear ex-roomie has finally graduated :) Congrats dear :)
Sunday: Packing day + Last minute shopping (I hope not.)
Monday: Taiwan! Taiwan! Taiwan! Yeah :D

Time to get back to my case summary. I hope ideas on how-to-write-the-discussion will come to me fast fast...

Another week, another adventure, another experiences to gain, another knowledge to learn and most of all, another blessing :) Thank God :)

PS: Thinking of going for a short trip to Sabah/Sarawak during 2 months of elective. Should I? Hmmm...

Hyper-resonance...

Today is one of those days when I feel like I don't deserve to be here again. Not-so-surprisingly, it's case presentation day, where everyone will have a chance to stand and talk in front and your fate that day depends on how good/bad is your presentation and of course, the lecturer that you get on that day. 

Today is the day when I feel like if someone percussed my head, I'm pretty sure that it'll be hyper-resonant. Not so long ago, when I was still a young junior, I look up to the 4th and final year seniors and think of how smart they are and how I wish to be like them. Now that I'm a 4th year, I don't feel smart at all. In fact, I feel like everything is diffusing out of my brain and there's nothing there, especially when lecturers prompt you non-stop. 

I really need to work even harder. I really don't want to graduate from here with my current situation. It's just bad. 

I just don't want to be a useless doctor.

PS: Somehow in very desperate situation, all sorts of excuses will come out from your mouth. Honestly, I'm embarrassed of even trying to given an excuse. 

Grey-ish...

Met Prof V to submit my poster. He took a look at me and asked me whether I'm stressed. He said I appeared very stress compared to few months before when we're doing CRP in Johor. I told him that minor postings are relatively free and he asked me why do I still look terrible. 

Hmmm... Funny, he's not the first person to say so, even my friend said sometimes my face will appear grey. Prof V is right, I can be very particular towards things and most of the times, I'll just end up torturing myself for no reason. 

Time to loosen up a little. I can't bind myself with multiple invisible ropes anymore. It's time to be nice to  myself. 

Footsteps...

I have to admit, I'm a clingy daughter. Ever since I was a little girl, I would always hold my mom's hand every time that we were out together.

When I was much younger, my mom had to slow down her footsteps and sometimes even dragging me since I walked very slow. She used to tease me that my future partner would not walk with me as he had to slow down his footsteps just so I could catch up with him.

Recently, when we were out shopping, I noticed that the scenario has reversed. I had to slow down my footsteps and walked slowly with her. At times when I was walking without holding her hands, I would stop halfway and wait for her to catch up with me. 

My mum has always looked young. Time never seems to show on her face and hair and so I'd always thought my mum is as young as ever. But now, seeing her footsteps getting slower and her multiple complaints of pain everywhere, I feel guilty. 

A reminder to myself: Stop taking granted of the things I have now especially my parents. They are getting older without me realising...

Buddy :)

当初first year时很懵懂
多亏有了这个'家庭'
让我的大学生活里有些色彩
感谢 :)

可怜的我们，忘了找人帮我们拍照，到最后只好自拍。Haha :)

Yeah :)

同一位老先生
同一只手
同一条vein
终于成功insert了cannula

老先生说：
看你那么紧张
下次不要再紧张了
多点练习
下次就厉害了

有一点成就感
可这也是幸运的一次
还需加紧练习
把setting line and blood taking成为我的second nature

:)

PS: 谢谢初雨的陪伴 :)

信心 :)

第一次失手
第二次成功
看着血涌出来
不经微笑了一下

老先生说：
不要怕
要打针就要勇敢些

谢谢老先生给予的信心 :)

责任感...

不明白
若躺在病房里的是你爱的人
你会把这个责任当作是个累赘吗？

挚爱的人无助地躺在病房上
但该负责任的人
懒懒散散
报以轻心
满口埋怨
你会开心吗？

或许我们的理想不一样
你只向往一份轻松的工作
不需oncall
不需night duty

朋友提醒我说
我不能因别人有着与我不一样的理想
而针对那人

友人说得对
在我不爽的时刻
我还得提醒我自己不要生气

但
想到别人的父母与爱的人躺在病床上
我还是看不顺眼