Tuesday, March 22, 2011

Frust...

Should have shut my mouth in the first place.

From our conversations, I thought we share the same thought about certain issues. Apparently not.

As much as I wish things are how all of us wants it to be ( I do want it to happen that way), it did not. I wish I can change it but I can't.

No, I can but it goes against my own principles. I'll try to stop the same thing from happening again but there are limitations, there are certain things that I can control without offending people.

Call me evil, call me stubborn, call me stupid. I don't know how many of you are going to be angry with me but I won't do it. I can't criticise people for doing it and then do it myself. It's just wrong.

I'm sorry.

Luke 6:31 'Do to others as you would have them to you.'
Luke 6:37 '... A good measure, pressed down, shaken together and running over, will be poured into your lap. For with the measure you use, it will be measured to you.'

Monday, March 21, 2011

Sighing...

Unfairness do happen no matter how fair you try to make it be.

There are times when I wish to voice out but can I? I have no control of everything and so I try to voice out only when I'm sure it won't offend anyone. Maybe I'm too timid but that's how I am.

Dislike when people don't place themselves in others' shoes. There are more to this world besides you yourself.

Dislike when people make assumption and think that they are right. Just because the person looks that way, it doesn't mean that he/she is really that kind of people. There are more to a person besides how he/she appears physically.

Dislike when people take things in their hands. Your decision may sound perfect for you but it may not be so to others.

I know I'm not perfect and I'm constantly trying to improve myself. Sometimes, I do wish that I can tell someone how I feel without them being offended. To have someone telling you your weakness is not easy, I know. I was told a few times in my life and that feeling sucks but thanks to the one who was brave enough to give me criticisms, I'm constantly trying to avoid behaving in ways that people dislike.

Life is definitely not as easy ride. But I know He's always there to be my provider and I do believe in prayers. Thank you God :)

Another emo post by an emo me...

Friday, March 4, 2011

Journey :)

Medical school is not an easy ride. Throughout my ride on this journey, I'd heard how my friend complained about how medical school had changed her from a happy-go-lucky girl to a dull and mundane girl. She is frustrated about how her life in now revolving around study and study only. I'm sure she is not the only one. The stress here is too great and sometimes, one tend to stick to the more straightforward pathway so as to get to the destination safely. No more taking risk. No more spending time in something else which is non-medical. No more letting yourself loose.

A few months ago, I made a decision to explore the bumpy pathway once again-dancing. Last year, it was a journey filled with tears, sweat and hard work but at the end, it was all worthwhile. There's just something sweet about the journey. Yes, there were tears but it was not as bad as last year. Somehow, my body was more obedient this time and I didn't have to struggle as hard as last year.

As usual, I joined 2 dances, tarian traditional kebangsaan and tarian kreatif. Lots of time were sacrificed for the practices but I am happy. Though there were some changes with the team members, we formed a bond between us fast and I truly enjoy the time we had together. I am also grateful for the great trainers we had, namely Abang Din, Abang Udean and Poh Gee lao shi. They were really patient with us though we do not have any basics in dancing. There were some funny moments (eg: The botox face) and embarrassing moments (eg: The 'Ipoh' incident). Because of their patience and inspiration, we were even more determined to do everything right for we really didn't want to disappoint them.

Our hard work did pay off at the end. Tarian Zapin and Joget were done nicely. Phewww... Though we didn't get any placing, we were happy because we know we had done our best and it was also the best one that our trainers had seen.

Preparing to go to rehearsal.

Us on the stage :)

Me after thick layer of make up...

Us outside DTC :)

Monday was the final competition, Tarian Kreatif. We managed to get 3rd place and best costume. The moment the result were out, all of us were jumping and hugging each other. It was definitely a big bonus for us :)

Us on the stage :)

Wax statue of me :P

Us with the technical team, our college penyelia, Puan Aida and our trainers :)

To all my dancing mates: Ana, Chu Yee, Marcella, Nini, Azlah, Kina, Boni, Taufiq, Hafiz, Irish, you guys are great and it's my pleasure to have all of you in this journey :) We proved that medical students can also dance :D Don't forget our post-FESENI gathering :)

To our trainers: Abang Din, Abang Udean, Poh Gee lao shi and those who came and helped us with the preparations, thanks for the support and patience :) Hope there'll be a time I can learn dancing from you again (though the chance seems rare). It's a pleasure to have all of you as our guidance throughout this journey and make the unfamiliar pathway more inviting and less scary :)

To God, thanks for being with me throughout this journey and thanks for the strength that you'd given me. Without You, I know I'll not be able to stand here and smile today. Thank you for always guiding me and comforting me when I'm feeling down. All glory are to you and only you, dear Lord :)

Now, it's back to reality. Night has seemed boring but life goes on. I still have lots of things to catch up :S Just pray that I'll reach the checkpoint safely. Same goes to the rest of us :)

P.S: Realised one thing. The only time when I can smile for a long time without feeling tired is on stage :)